AM SAFE TO SAY

AM SAFE TO SAY

Am happy as a pig in shit that I finally got over you....
My once was damned and delirious mystery that suddenly brought about inner misery...
With you out of my web,
And God leading the way,
Am safe to say,
My soul is in shape...

Not that I am stupid enough, I just long to be loved so I let myself hurt again and again if that's what it takes...
I don't have the strength to face you anymore but am safe to say
Am ready to explore life and love again....

Safely and smoothly
Am moving to the other part..
Am safe to say am building my own fort....
Am overwhelmed with so much peace that is braving my blues.........

Though you did not seem like such a lie, its amazing how you made me cry from time to time....
Am profoundly inspired by the strength that peace had to offer.
Am safe to say goodbye.🙌🙌✌

Its funny how

ITS FUNNY how

In your uncompleted sentence, I am your new uncommited thought....
In your unfinished transition, I am your unlike reflection......

If I had known that this is how far we would go,
I wouldn't have taken a seat in the first place....
Its profoundly funny how I thought id grow old with n say goobye to life with you...
Av loved you over and over but that's not the issue.....
It is you assuming, judging me and realizing I am not the one for you.

It is as if nothing ever happened the way you walked away from a woman you said you loved....
I wonder how this could be after all the sweet words that you uttered...

You have been a dream come true
But a burden too....
I accept how you think I am a bad person but even though I tried my best, it seems my best wasn't good enough.

I wanted to be your perfect and complete bundle of joy just as much as you were mine....
Never really thought something like dialogue could ever come between us...
You have grown so cold and made 'US' seem like a waste of time and my faith....

I never had a crystal ball to see the future, but I had so much hope n faith in our love.
No poet's hand can ever paint the shades of pain that dwell in my heart as I write this.

But I guess I made the mistake and you made the choice to leave and put an end to what used to be us.......

Its even funnier how
I hope our friendship gets to last longer than us. Thanks fr being there.

He is God

For His love is strong as death,
its jeaulousy unyielding as the grave....
Burning like a blazing fire, as a mighty flame,
many waters cannot quench it, many rivers can not wash it away.....

His mercies are new every morning.
His eyes are filled with goodness...

His banner over me is love,
My first love,
Unrefined, extravagant, never fading,
Never ending, its force unstoppable...

My protector...
Like a sentry, He keeps watch over me,
through every step I take, decision I make,
through every single breathe, His focus is constant ....

My friend,
His friendship is intimate,
Leaves no room for solitude....
When the world feels like a lonely Island,
He is right here, in me, and besides me......

The author of salvation,
Starter Nd finisher of my faith..
Giver and taker of life...
My life lies solely in His hands, He will satisfy me with long life...

The creator of the heavens and the earth and all that is in it.
My refuge and my fotress, my God in Him I trust....

Exalted forever,
My lips will ever praise His name and proclaim He reigns!
Robbed in majesty and armed In strength....
My very present help in times of need.

He is the greatest!
For who can compare?
Mightier than the thunder of great waters, than the breakers of the sea!
Splendor and majesty are before him...
Strength and glory are in his sanctuary!!

He is the king of kings...
The father to the fatherless,
Husband to the widow...

Righteousness and Justice are the Foundation of His throne..
His lightning lights up the world...
Before Him, mountains melt like wax,
The heavens proclaim His righteousness..

His love endures forever,
And His faithfulness continues through all generations........

He is the one and only true God. His name is Jehovah.

This is me

I am a girl...
Black skin, brown eyes and kinky hair....
Clouded mind because I don't care that am imperfect,
 detached and not really scared....
I love every bit of my origin because I believe black is pure.....

Elegant, truthful, poised and precious...
Almost unrefined.....
I am an open book but only read by those who care..
Hard to please
Never really satisfied..

I grow in strength and Foundation each day
and through every heartache and pain...
With Limp emotions
Suffering from an emotional malediction..
I pray ernestly for benediction..
Replenishing my intergity with total resilience...


I am quite a romantic, sensual and passionate too...
To the love of my life, I can't wait to share this with you.....

I bend, yet I do not break,
I believe in my imaginations for no concrete reason....
I merge brightest on the shadow silhouetted
aggainst the Wallpaper placed right above my own ledge...

No one cares to see or know the inside of me,
Your perception is messed up
because all you care about is my looks and mistakes.
Notwithstanding my confidence still remains intact.....

There is only one me, and this is me, do not second guess......
Hurtful words do not phase me, for I listen but not hear....
Am defined only by one thing and it forever stands the word of God.....

So you see, whatever you think or say doesn't really matter to me.
I know who I am.💪🏽👌🏼

Swerve not

When life doesn't look like you
And you struggle so much to live like them
When everyone's type is not like you
So you make compromises to fit in....

When life standards on social media are higher than you
And so you're fighting in haste for recognition, acceptance and attention...

When the road you're strolling on seems like a total uphill.....
And your expectation of perfection seems a little too much,
 desperation hits and insecurities kick in...

When society is giving you every reason to leave yourself and boost your personality,
And when life is giving you every reason to stop and shut down......
Remember that flames go out when the fire dies,
 if you give up on you, you can never be youer than you.

So go placidly amid on society's every opinion of you and how best you can be,
 and the voices in your head and,
remember the absolute peace there is in silence and self acceptance💜
>SWERVE NOT<

Deep within

Long unloved, used, mistreated,
unnoticed and wanted in disguise
But never a moment were my emotions and ken of love ravaged......

Overwhelmed by pain, regret and infinite sadness
 caused by random but very special moments and a few words,
Just a few.....

My emotions are the speed of my tears,
Regardless of the wounds and scars chambered to my heart,
I feel the same, I long to love over again,
I have chosen forgiven than stress....

Absolute imagination remains the lover in my trance,
for mostly what I see coming back is my past...
No one really sees what my heart has yerned and wept for,
tender acceptance and total resilience...
So many things  go untold.........

No one pretty much knows my cover,
For I chose something much more resistant to trauma....
Regardless of my emotional drama,
I smile and laugh hard so they won't know what's under.....

Notes from the inside 3

The morning comes by so fast.....
My dreams don't really last long enough when my night seems to crush.....
Everything, seemed to have happened in a flash,
But thinking of you ne'er stops my heart from beating this fast.......

My is, my was, I wish you could be my now.....
Your face was drawn on the walls of my heart,
When I was with you, time flew by so fast...
Your smile got tattooed on my mind...
It still feels like my past is in the present,
Every time your voice keeps echoing in my head....

You left my heart bleeding...
Your finger prints touch back on my skin...
You're gone for some days, maybe even years.....
I have no words of wisdom,
To ease my aching heart...

You are gone and I will be here,
A thousand miles apart
But even though you're so far away....
My heart beats so fast at the thought of your smile..........☺

notes from the inside 2

That day we met,
Remember when our eyes met on the hinge, I felt the ridge blow around me
Before we fell a little on the inside...

The strokes of your fingers on my back as you hugged me still lingers.....
The warmth our bodies felt when we held eachother,a type of magic that is disillusioned.....
Hearts beating as one,
To the sound of great affection....
What manner of emotion..

They say time and chance happens to them all, and I think you should know that even if we let our moment go, at least we stole the show!!      

The moment you left,
You took my mind with you, yeah its true.....
My heart got stuck on yours, that's probably because
You treat me well.....

A coldness I remember feeling once in my life came back alive, I was so at ease, like a bird flopping my wings in the air....
Something profoundly amazing..

Had you for a moment,
In the palm of my hands but the moment I saw u drive off,
I knew you were gone...
I would never have you......  

Until now, I stil wish we had it all, time and space, love and trust, hands intertwined, together forever without a hex.......

Maybe

Maybe
You should hurt a little or even more and feel the pain run deep within your soul,
fall madly inlove with the wrong people all over again,
love them so hard,get disappointed and hurl whispers within that heart of yours.
You should move around and fit right into the wrong places,
be a joke and make someone laugh at you.

You should be tamed and pushed right into a corner,
how else will you learn to stand alone?
Go on and make mistakes, do a few wrong things,
how else will you learn from life's many lessons?
Run into walls and fall hard enough so u can learn how to miss them the next time..

It's okay to fold and lock yourself up and cry for  everytime you get used,
learn to forgive untill you see a brighter side of the situation,
or how else will you know how others feel?

No one has an alibi to prove to earth that they don't deserve to go through everything they do, be it good or bad.
You should go through the hardships that your maker alloWS you to ,
only then will you know how it feels,
Always know and believe that , on one fateful day,
everything will add up and the right things, people, moments and situations will fall into place.
#thehardertheHARDSHIPS_thegreatortheTESTIMONY.
💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪

Note from the inside

I am like the soil on the ground...
some people continuously step on me,
they don't see my worth, its invisible and
ignored, completely written off their minds.....

Well, for others, they pick me up,
But only to use me for their own benefits....
they keep me for aslong as they need me.

Some though, they only pick me up to use me
and throw me back on the ground,
they hit and run as I become useless....

Only a few pipo understand and fully know my worth and importance,
they know how hard I can build and stick on the ground regardless of the weather
so these, they keep me closely attached to their minds,
they may want to plant something later
they water me continuously...

The winds of life blow me away to different directions but thereafter,
I settle still on this very ground..  
the rains from my past try to wash me away,
but even if they have and still do,
I end up somewhere on the same ground
just in a different place with different strengths.

I appreciate those that sweep me away,
the winds that blow me away and the rains that wash me away to different places,
maybe, its for my own good....

Maybe they push me right in the place am supposed to be,
where I can be fruitful and help the abandoned  seeds (talents and abilities) grow.....

I am that type of soil  that will stick to the ground,
regardless of the situations m faced with,
strongly believing that one day, just someday,
il be able to grow something from the nothing that I may seem to be.

Notes from me

U may be looking around tirelessly,
 waiting on time relentlessly for that moment and the special person to fulfil everything you have dreamt of, planned for and waited on almost all the years of your life.

You have waited, hoped, dreamt, planned and prepared  now all that is needed
is that someone to sweep you off your feet, to motivate you, tell you that yes you can do it, and put off those thoughts that make you sore to the core of your existence,
and that rightful moment to blow your covers and show the world what you are made of....

Well I want to tell you that no one can understand you better than you,
no one can motivate u better than the inner you, all you got to do is look for you,
look on the inside and find yourself...
Stop looking and waiting for anyone else to help you live your  life better. Because the only person that can really make you complete is YOU and the rightful moment to do it is NOW!💪💪😉😉😉😉😉
#GODZgotYOU
#LEE💜💜💜💜