Happiness

 To once more bee free

Happiness is being home again 

Walking in the rain and waking with no pain.

Happiness is peace of mind like a free ride..

Happiness is knowing everyone you love is happy and in good health.

Happiness is the little things that spark joy when you least expect. Happiness is the simple things. 

But if happiness was a minute's pause, or a moment's thought, life would be an hour glass on the run, and like a mist retreating from the morning sun.

If the world was all love before us, happiness would definitely lie around we.

Moments

 From I love Yous,  to I miss yous, to nothing new......Just awkward silence and busy days or lost signals

It's in these moments I remember how it used to be, the days we called just to say hi or talk for a while and it was hard to say goodbye...

In moments like these, the bright stars shiver in distance as I love him fully and think about the times he loved me too.

I reminisce of the moments my hands held on to his,  as we walked in streets or made love in places we stayed....

In these moments, I remember how I felt the first time he held me in his arms,  when time stood still as we stayed in each other's arms and nothing else mattered. When we made music and eye contacts from our souls but all is gone.....

In moments like these, I wish I could turn back the time, to feel how his hands held me and how his lips kissed mine. In moments like this, I miss him dearly as I slowly forget his love as it doesn't seem to be there anymore.....

And in this moment, when I am still in love with him and the deep despair of lovers rumble, my heart is bruised and my soul crumbled....

In this moment, I should be talking to him but I can see just how there's going to be no more of me with him and now my heart is getting used to being alone.

In this very moment, my heart tires.

Of Two Men

One calls me beautiful 

And the other thinks I can be cute

One honours me with trust and a safe space

And the other constantly justifies everything he does and blames me for not trusting him

One needs me 

And the other one wants me around for as long as he can wait to put his life together 

One has found the capacity to love me in ways undreamed

And the other one gives me reasons to question if his love is always there...

One warms me like a warm blanket 

And the other hopes that I can keep warm

One hides his feelings

And the other wears his proudly on his sleeves

One dreams to make me his wife

And the other one is willing to take me as a wife.

One cannot live to see me sad

And the other one doesn't usually notice when am saddened.

One goes out of his way to make things right 

And the other proudly stays in the ways of his culture and hopes that I'd be fine with it 

Both make me laugh and smile

But one feels close and the other very distant from love.

Be Happy and Love

As the sun hosts you in blue, blue sky,

Pour a glass of your favourite wine and sing along to your favourite songs of merry for you and that soul you behold where made for love.

As the beautiful day unfolds,

Look for, and find a stranger who is troubled within their soul, and in despair and lend a helping hand where you can. Lead him through the day with love and kindness so he may see that the world is fair.

As the sun fades and gives way to the night,

Think about how the earth grows green on a thousand hills and a million birds by a million rills make beautiful music for the beautiful creation there is...

Feel that this life is all for you and so are the joys and peace every passing night brings.

And now as you wake to see another day,

I hope that you can love and care for the next person, share the little you have and be grateful for life in all situations because this life was made for you and you for it.

So be happy and LOVE!

She finds herself Letting go

 She finds herself letting go without a thought or compromise ,She's letting go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head...All the memories, ideas and emotions holding her back,

The anxiety, the worries of what will be. What if this never returns? The fear of moving on.

She finds herself letting go as her love doesn't seem to notice the pain she may be going through as she watches him live without a care.

She finds herself letting go as she holds on to love, to what remains after all the pain is put away...

As the nerves sit ceremonious like tombs. Her dense heart questions how he cannot see that it's not about trust.....

She finds herself letting go as she finally breathes her pain like fresh air and bleeds through the heart like night terror..

She lets go as the less she controls, the more she gets to grow and realizes that she cannot do it for someone else anymore regardless of all the care.....

She finds herself letting go 

As she realizes that she cannot control another as much as she does not want to try and change the other.......   

I  hope you can find yourself letting go when it feels like you have to fear for what is to be.