notes from the inside 2

That day we met,
Remember when our eyes met on the hinge, I felt the ridge blow around me
Before we fell a little on the inside...

The strokes of your fingers on my back as you hugged me still lingers.....
The warmth our bodies felt when we held eachother,a type of magic that is disillusioned.....
Hearts beating as one,
To the sound of great affection....
What manner of emotion..

They say time and chance happens to them all, and I think you should know that even if we let our moment go, at least we stole the show!!      

The moment you left,
You took my mind with you, yeah its true.....
My heart got stuck on yours, that's probably because
You treat me well.....

A coldness I remember feeling once in my life came back alive, I was so at ease, like a bird flopping my wings in the air....
Something profoundly amazing..

Had you for a moment,
In the palm of my hands but the moment I saw u drive off,
I knew you were gone...
I would never have you......  

Until now, I stil wish we had it all, time and space, love and trust, hands intertwined, together forever without a hex.......

Maybe

Maybe
You should hurt a little or even more and feel the pain run deep within your soul,
fall madly inlove with the wrong people all over again,
love them so hard,get disappointed and hurl whispers within that heart of yours.
You should move around and fit right into the wrong places,
be a joke and make someone laugh at you.

You should be tamed and pushed right into a corner,
how else will you learn to stand alone?
Go on and make mistakes, do a few wrong things,
how else will you learn from life's many lessons?
Run into walls and fall hard enough so u can learn how to miss them the next time..

It's okay to fold and lock yourself up and cry for  everytime you get used,
learn to forgive untill you see a brighter side of the situation,
or how else will you know how others feel?

No one has an alibi to prove to earth that they don't deserve to go through everything they do, be it good or bad.
You should go through the hardships that your maker alloWS you to ,
only then will you know how it feels,
Always know and believe that , on one fateful day,
everything will add up and the right things, people, moments and situations will fall into place.
#thehardertheHARDSHIPS_thegreatortheTESTIMONY.
💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪

Note from the inside

I am like the soil on the ground...
some people continuously step on me,
they don't see my worth, its invisible and
ignored, completely written off their minds.....

Well, for others, they pick me up,
But only to use me for their own benefits....
they keep me for aslong as they need me.

Some though, they only pick me up to use me
and throw me back on the ground,
they hit and run as I become useless....

Only a few pipo understand and fully know my worth and importance,
they know how hard I can build and stick on the ground regardless of the weather
so these, they keep me closely attached to their minds,
they may want to plant something later
they water me continuously...

The winds of life blow me away to different directions but thereafter,
I settle still on this very ground..  
the rains from my past try to wash me away,
but even if they have and still do,
I end up somewhere on the same ground
just in a different place with different strengths.

I appreciate those that sweep me away,
the winds that blow me away and the rains that wash me away to different places,
maybe, its for my own good....

Maybe they push me right in the place am supposed to be,
where I can be fruitful and help the abandoned  seeds (talents and abilities) grow.....

I am that type of soil  that will stick to the ground,
regardless of the situations m faced with,
strongly believing that one day, just someday,
il be able to grow something from the nothing that I may seem to be.

Notes from me

U may be looking around tirelessly,
 waiting on time relentlessly for that moment and the special person to fulfil everything you have dreamt of, planned for and waited on almost all the years of your life.

You have waited, hoped, dreamt, planned and prepared  now all that is needed
is that someone to sweep you off your feet, to motivate you, tell you that yes you can do it, and put off those thoughts that make you sore to the core of your existence,
and that rightful moment to blow your covers and show the world what you are made of....

Well I want to tell you that no one can understand you better than you,
no one can motivate u better than the inner you, all you got to do is look for you,
look on the inside and find yourself...
Stop looking and waiting for anyone else to help you live your  life better. Because the only person that can really make you complete is YOU and the rightful moment to do it is NOW!💪💪😉😉😉😉😉
#GODZgotYOU
#LEE💜💜💜💜

made, used, (recycling in process)

I am a tree
Striving to survive...
I take life as it is,
I go through what I should,

I may look weak but I am strong enough to stand through the tides....
yes I do bend but I do not break💪

I stand through out all the seasons of life..
My leaves fall off in spring,
They do dry up in the summer,
I do weather alot but my roots are strong enough to hold on to the ground...

No season can move me because somehow I know one day my leaves will grow and fruits will fall...👐☺☺☺


I am a cold cold night..
No one loves to stay with me..
But that doesn't matter anyway because as lonely as I can be, I stil go on and freeze everything away and wait patiently for my time to fade away....


Like a coke bottle made of plastic,
So many people have picked me and maybe bought me, they used me and threw me away.....

But yeah am a bottle made of plastic, my maker sees value in me, regardless of how many times they have thrown me, He picked me and is recycling me into something even better and beautiful...

Not just a man

Not just a man....
I don't just need a man.....
I need a heart that will love me truly and no one else through the thicks and thins of this life....
Not just any kind of man
I need hands that will hold me up when I trip and fall on my way to the top....
The kind of eyes that will look at me everyday like the first day that we met..... No not just a man

I can get one anytime I want....
I need emotions that will be attached with mine,
I need love that is pretty much hard to find....
the kind that hardly dies.....
a mind tht will bond with mine to try and sort things out and a man to tell me baby let's go even when I can't find the strength to stand.....
I won't settle for just any man..

There is quite a number on the streets but I don't need just any man..
I need someone I can connect with, fight with, laugh with, live with, grow with and die with......
Together and forever.......
Not just a man
Yes they do exist.
A man with flaws but knows where he stands...

Worth so much more

Yesterday, the other day, last week, that other week, last month, it has been too lOng .......
You can't remember the last time you closed your eyes to pray..

Got pregnant one, two, three times,
All kids with different dads,
Guilt, shame and pain keep haunting you
All u wanted was to pull through this life that is hard....
God understands..

Living a life of disgust,
Men, clubbing and alcohol is all u know
You don't know where you went wrong...
Now you crying inside, Lord please come through....
You gonna get there someday.

Everybody has got a dark side, some jus too visible
And others invisible...
Shake if off a little,
Your past does not define you
Your flaws simply make you beautiful...


You may have slept with a hundred or dozen men,
Married and single all the same
Fighting for change
Trying to fit in.....
You are not alone, we all have a story to tell.

Living a life of loneliness and pain.
Breathing with nothing to gain,
Surrounded by darkness and overwhelmed with shame,
A life with no peace and nobody to blame.....
There's so much you need to know!

There's a divine and infinite potential within your soul...
You are worth so much more,....

You are not losing the fight,
There is so much hope in sight,
You are beautiful and deserving!
Your worth is not wrapped up in your mistakes so,
Take a minute and look into the sky,
Remember there is something out there bigger than all of us...

You can do so much more serving Him.
Your creator will never deny you

Love me for me

Dear man,
When you want to love me,

DO not fall inlove with my eyes,
These petals will one day wilt with wrinkles and lose sight,
Love me for me.


Do not love me for my breasts,
These two mountains will one day fall and dry away like autom leaves, what will u love me for then?


Do not love me for my talks,
One day this code of mine will fade and die,
My lips will surely weaken out,
How will u keep loving me when I'll not be able
To utter those sweet words again?


Do not fall inlove with my legs before my heart,
These two will dry and stiffen like cut out polls,
will u still love me then?


Please do not fall inlove with my body,
This garden will not be beautiful forever,
How will it satisfy you when it wilts and wears away like a fine plastic bottle on fire??
Will u love me then??

Love me for me,
Not for how I look and what I have,
for my heart and personality are the only things that will never die away before my time.

My body is like petals,
Beautiful, bright and attractive now!
But that season awaits me when you will not like what u will see,
I will dry out when I get old too..
And there will be nothing left of me for u to love me.

Ulimuntu fye

ULIMUNTU FYE`

you are only human
Man or woman.
You are not perfect,
Undefined by your imperfections..
Don't expect to meet everyone`s expectation,
`ULIMUNTU FYE`
You're bound to make mistakes.


Your flaws do not mark you flawed.
Your imperfections make you beautiful, no need to be fooled.
You are a high definition
No need for much explanations,
So love when you feel burnt in those shoes,
Ulimuntu FYE,
Pick up those shoes and walk an extra mile,
What matters is your destination.


I know all you may see are pointing fingers,
Pain eats you alive on the inside,
You are only a victim.
IKOSELESHE
You can be so much more,
Don't let your past define you.

So ...UNFWA (listen)
Sansamuka
Be happy, your happiness is all that matters.
Haven't you heard?
People will always be people n they will never stop talking...
Give them your back,
Let them feed on your past
There is only so much you can take..

Ngawapona, Ima!
Stay focussed, get back up!
Pick up those pieces,
You are not a flat-line,
You can do so much more....


Ulimuntu FYE
Go insane if you have to,
Insanity is bliss,
Insansa niweka.
Let your worries disappear...
Free your thoughts,
Let your imagination grow!
Until you finally understand that YOU ARE ONLY HUMAN,,,,,
DO ALL YOU CAN

This is me '1'

This is me
I am who I am
Loving or thoughtful
Angry or meek,
I am a dreamer,
I never stop trying....
I am a girl full of hope.
THIS IS ME..


I am not as forgiving as I'd sometimes like to be,
Because when I hurt , I hurt deeply.
My logic is all my own
At times misunderstood because I don't always do things for my own good.
I am only me..


I am independent and unbreakable,
I believe in me, I don't fall for peer pressure..
I never stop thinking of how my past was and how the future will be...
I am patient and impatient
This is who I am.
THIS IS ME.


Do not see what you wish for me,
I am torn, but not completely broken..
See my hopes and my dreams,
I can never be perfect but m still worth it.
Sometimes I pretend, most times I lie..
This is who I am.
THIS IS ME

Am like a match stick
In all that is left of me,
I can make an explosion.
So don't underate me,
You don't know my intentions...
I am full of words that are unspoken...
Beautiful but ugly,
My mistakes never seize to hug me
this is who I am.
THIS IS ME.


SOMETIMES,
I just wana be right, and never wrong
What you wantt I may not have,
Your expectations I may not meet
And my outlook may not impress you.

I am my own girl..
In my world, I only exist,
Am not here to impress you...
Am a perfect definition of Imperfection
But that is who I am.
THIS IS ME

Another kind of peace

Corruption and plunder
Selfishness and murder,
Striking our communities so fast like thunder,...
One after the other.
Bad vices taking over our communities and nation ,...
One wonders

Politicians, fighting for power and control against one another,
Stirring up rage and anger
With their so called cadres...
Our nation , slowly heating up like a sauna...


Communities are fighting over land,
Confusion has become the order of the day,
What happened to looking out for each other?
Some just need a helping hand.


Slowly falling apart,
Story of mother Zambia...
What happened to the harmony, the calmness and composure??
The agreement of a ONE ZAMBIA, ONE NATION?.
We are supposed to be a Christian nation.

Peace is not only the absence of war......
It is the absence of pride, envy, selfishness and anger.

It is the effort of trying to restructure the sentences that our lives are making,
The spirit of love , forgiveness and most of all togetherness..


Our newspapers arrive with careless stories,
Filling up those front pages, the media today are just hungry for publishing catchy stories...
They run around to put some news on air, that's all that matters, after all, at the end of the day, they are getting paper....

As a nation,
Peace is to be so much as a culture,
More than a tendency, peace should be like a tradition.....

For the sound of nature is not heard anymore,
The rhythm that soothes the soul.
As everything that happens today is poignant.

In our country there shall be peace,
Only when conflicts totally cease,
Instead of politicians blaming each other for being wrong,
Why can't they just learn to get along....?

Peace is something we mutually share,
For it is just and fair....
Don't just sit there and stare
Because most of all,
peace begins with you and me.......

When i say am saved

When I say am Saved
Please excuse me, I don't mean that I am perfect
My flaws are all too visible,
I get lost too and I constantly need Jesus to hold me..
But God believes am worth it.


Being Christian does not mean that I am strong...
Hell no!
I am professing to be weak
And I pray for strength to carry on...

See am a flower
In some seasons, I weather and dry,.
I am praying to God, to hold me up, mould me, and breath in me all the essentials of life..


When I say am saved,
I am not trying to push away or ignore the people that are tamed bad in society,
I have my own piece of the cake, I have been there.
So am crying out Lord, please hook me up with such people, the broken, the torn, the used, the ones in pain, the condemned
And let the love u bestowed upon me manifest...
I want to share my faith with someone.


When I say I am christian,
I am not bragging about my success,
I am admiting to failure,.
Am an open book and am crying out please God, write your story on my heart!
TRANSFORM ME.

SO please..
Get this right...
When I say I am Christian,
I still mess up here and there,
I make bad decisions,
I submit to my confusion,
I have my own share of pain, sin, shame and a past!
Which is why I seek His name.
Am human, not a spirit.

Dear boys

Dear boys

I hear you love wild girls.
The girls that literally get down for anything .
Those girls that go out to the club with you and get drunk with you..
The girls that give it all to you at the snap of your fingers and they make you forget where you come from ..

Yeah the girls that have 'thee' curves right,
Perfect hair and make up on..
Am speaking of the dear girls with nothing much to do, so they are available 24/7...
The ones you know have everything a guy wants so you love to show them off,
Exposure!!

Well, that's good for you.
But here's to you, from us
The girls that y'all care less about..

'We' the old fashioned girls in the back....
The ones that go un noticed..
We are lucky you pass us by, we are not ready to be used, we have priorities n we know what we deserve..

So hold up!!!
When your hot chicks mess u up with diseases n leave u bankrupt or out of time,

Fellas pliz'.....
Don't come to us with your,
I didn't know what I was doing quotes,
You're the girl for me n etc...
Remember ,we are good like this,
We deserve better and well
Now that u been washed up in dirt,
Guess what?! We not stuck or anything......

The best thing you can do is go back to Jesus now

For the broken girl in the corner

Its a shame you're apart..
You wish you could take it back to the start,
But we all know there is always a reason why some things fall apart...
It was a cold 'comfort..
Quit frowning at yourself.

See he clearly wasn't meant for you...
Yeah this is true.
You loved him n thought he did too,

Gave in to lust,
You let him go to all the places his hands were itching to touch..
Without thinking...
He finally played with your strings,
Now you not even things...

See all he wanted from you was to strip you off of your pride and take a bite
Then with immediate effect, take an early flight off your life...
No he never intended to be your mr right....
Zero intensions.

You took a bullet for him,
Missed a few shots from the guys who meant no harm.....
Your pretty boy was way too fine, had a nice ride, cash intact, made your head spin round, his words took your breath away.....sent you a Facebook relationship status, damn! That must have left you breath less.....

Well, see, reality is that he broke into your imaginations, nothing anyone else said made sense,
The chill pill was too bitter to swallow..
He abused your emotions,
Misused your body whenever he wanted then later,
He left you hanging there all alone,
You're broken..


See honey, not all that glitters is gold.....you probably heard of duplicity,
I trust you're intelligent.

Now you need to woman up! Forget about the tears n fears, what's done is done..
Your worth is not wrapped up in material things, and artificial beings,
You deserve better!
Your worth is rooted deep in Christ

To the guys around me

Am sorry
That am not perfect , (most times) I mess up too.

Am sorry
That am just a normal girl with so much self respect!
I love to stay home all night and not go out..

Am sorry
My body is not nice enough to satisfy your wants,
Especially of your eyes.

Am sorry
I do not sleep with any guy that comes my way,
I will stay this way...

Am sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to
But never (good enough) to date

Am sorry
You can't realize av been (the one all along...)

Am sorry
I was brought up the right way (I have priorities)
So I'd rather stay up all night to write poetry than go out to the club
That's not my kinda place to be...


Am sorry
That am not what you are looking for.
I actually care less..

Am sorry
That am actually nice and (not a bitch)

Am sorry
I have no expensive weaves, handsets, clothes, bags and shoes,
But am okay the way I am.
Taking one step at a time..


Am sorry
I am dark skinned and proud,
Won't try to be a yellow bone that y'all run to...
Am fine this way..

Am sorry
That I am not your type of girl,
But most of all,
Am sorry for not being sorry anymore.....

I am female and am actually OK with being alone and waiting for everything right to come my way!!
At the right time n right places.....

To all the guys

Am sorry
That am not perfect , (most times) I mess up too.

Am sorry
That am just a normal girl with so much self respect!
I love to stay home all night and not go out..

Am sorry
My body is not nice enough to satisfy your wants,
Especially of your eyes.

Am sorry
I do not sleep with any guy that comes my way,
I will stay this way...

Am sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to
But never (good enough) to date

Am sorry
You can't realize av been (the one all along...)

Am sorry
I was brought up the right way (I have priorities)
So I'd rather stay up all night to write poetry than go out to the club
That's not my kinda place to be...


Am sorry
That am not what you are looking for.
I actually care less..

Am sorry
That am actually nice and (not a bitch)

Am sorry
I have no expensive weaves, handsets, clothes, bags and shoes,
But am okay the way I am.
Taking one step at a time..


Am sorry
I am dark skinned and proud,
Won't try to be a yellow bone that y'all run to...
Am fine this way..

Am sorry
That I am not your type of girl,
But most of all,
Am sorry for not being sorry anymore.....

I am female and am actually OK with being alone and waiting for everything right to come my way!!
At the right time n right places.....

Choices

At the verge of night,
I lay down on my bed, with my head on the edge.....
My room all black
My night mares come back...
Its my past that won't retire...


I regret the moments I took for granted,
Moments I was eaten up by pride and hatred....
Am all alone, and its all in my head, you won't understand.

What happened to the life I had?
The one that was all cheesey and easy.....


I was impatient and naive.
I let people take advantage of me..
The desire to explore,
Pushed my life to the core, and now my heart is sore,
It can't feel anymore...

I thought I could find love and hold it....
Blindly, I went for it...
Gave in and tried to hold on to someone I thought felt the same...
My heart's tattoo had his name...
I only caused myself heartache and pain...

The choices I made
Got me mentally abused,
Physically misused...
But thanks to God, all the tears I cried finally fused.

Its the choices I made that landed me here today,
So whether or not I like it, I must strive to make it,
Pick up my personal pieces and give to this life a reason,
To go on through each and every season.......

Should have been you

I rushed and I crushed...
Broke a leg so I couldn't move.
My heart is still intact
He played with my body,
Toiled with my emotions
But never really broke my heart, he just thought he tore me apart....

Somehow I sit down n wonder why it wasn't you,
Why did I have to meet you when I was held by wrong hands?
It should have been you,
I swear our love would have been true...

It should have been you whom I missed the most,
it should have you my heart yarns for the most,
it should have been you that I saw today,it should have been you to make first impressions worth more than meeting new friends


It should have been you
This would have been a better song and we would both be singing along...

In love there is no discount
But for so much more, words count....
I guess I have had enough of seemingly bright and lovely people
Who burn through me and expect me to last.......

I have made so many wrong decisions in my life,
I can't write off these lines but I thank God it'd all in the past....

Wide as the mouth of a winding river,
It should have been you that picked me up and swept me away..... Shiny and white....

With broken pieces and a bunch of misplaced n uncollected words, all I am trying to say is...

It should have been you to finish this poem,
but putting a smile on your face means a little more to me right now,
It should have been you that I fell in love with...
Not him

Written by
#Lisa&Robert

Trapped

Am trapped on the inside,
With needles and razors
Each of a different size...
My emotions are ever in motion,
Like the sun, moving in slow motion..
ZERO COMMOTION


Am surrounded by people
Pushed to the middle
Yet am alone on the inside..
Rare as a pickle,
My heart is made of pixels.
If only you could love me,
I'd give you some of me and we could glow
Higher than eagles..

They say you can't fix what has been broken
But I try to bandage the damage with
ZERO BAND AIDS
I hold on  tight
With no fright...
There must be hope..

In the dark of nights,
I lay to feel alright
But my heart goes to war, wrestles my mind
And leaves me trapped on the inside...

So my eyes close
And I hold on to memories that beat me down so slow
If only I could change things...
I lose control, and cry out my soul..
OH NO.......

who u are

Who you are

Wondering who you really are??
Sitting around on that corner crying and asking God why??
Cutting razors through your flesh because you can't understand why things are happening the way they are??
Been thrown outside, kicked by your own guilt, shame and pain??
Disgusted by your own body.....
You have been placed in the corner, they rated you an outcast!! They told you , you are dirty, you're bad and ugly, You can never change........
Well they lied to you, so did your mind, your entire brain n heart because that is not who you really are.....

You are...
A beautiful and priceless work of art, created and shaped in the image of the most high God #Jehovah
An apple of God's eye
Beautiful and deserving..
Forgiven and loved,
worth dying for,
you're intelligent, the salt of the world,
among the chosen and called!!
A Jesus Revolution DNA carrier!!
Cared for and valued
A child of a King!!
A god because you take after the most high....
more than the choices that you've made,
more than some of your past mistakes
more than the problems that you have created,
YOU HAVE BEEN RE-MADE
You are God's own valued Child..

STOP striving and trying to earn grace, Let God lift u up, just dont turn away,
why are u looking for love
why are u still searching as if He is not enough????

Why are you stil crying??
Look at the cross and see what He did for you, took His own life so u could have one.....


Get up, and be proud!!!
Shake off that past and walk head high!! Listen to God n not man....

HIS HANDS ARE HOLDING YOU, DAY AND NIGHT, IN GOOD AND BAD TIMES....

I love you
#Lisa

Love : my definition

Love is where all dreams and hopes reside,
Its like a fountain of water, ever running..
Ever alive ,
Ever breathing like the waters in the Ocean...
It never runs out....

Not loud, never to be heard
Love is a quiet sensation
To love, there is no sequel,
its never easily mistaken with infatuation...

Love is a chance for two hearts to share and grow trust, understanding and compassion
It breaks fourth like a thief in the night,
pulls you away from yourself into another world and sweeps you right off your feet......
Any time is right for love,
it knows no age or status..

Its beauty is It's essential air for the soul to breath and its eternal endurance,
it's absence of hell even when I think Am in it...

LOVE is the light inside my eyes,
it gives me reason not to give up and try...

It is inner peace that cuts right through like razors....
It may confuse you a little,..
Kill you a little
Maximize or reduce your pulse rate to a tic toc, tic toc..
but IT'S STILL CALLED LOVE...

Love is immaculate and immanent,
closely working with that heart and keeps you feeling beautiful....

Love is an art, pure and expressive in its own unique way.....
May drive you crazy ,
drain ur eyes and sicken you but IT'S STILL CALLED LOVE.

As immeasurable as it is,
Love is a touch of kindness that leaves me feeling complete😊

For a friend

I'm not sure when and how it happened
But I'm very glad it did
You came into my life
When I really needed a friend

Your kindness and tender heart is what I fell for
Very new but yet its feels like I have known you forever......

The only thing I know about you is your last name
it's kinda insane
But the important thing I know is You are a good person, at least so it seems.

Calm as the waters in the sea,
Brave as the the stars at night, no one can steal your shine.😊😊😊🙈
I hope our friendship goes a mile......

We sit and we type, and we stare at our screens,
We all have to wonder, what this possibly means...

We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes flirt,
On WhatsApp we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt.
We have formed a bond
but why, we don't know,
I hope that our friendship will flourish and grow.

The more I get to know you
The more I know myself
And this is why I'm thankful
For you are just yourself

You and I are different
But in many ways the same
Your good ear and tender heart
Will always find you fame

My writing may not be so perfect but.....
I promise to always be here
Forever and to the end.
Well thats if you need me as your friend😀😀😀