Dear Life Partner

Dear Life Partner

I can't wait for every second that you and i will spend together.....
Regardless of the weather....
we wil be forever.

When i think about my future all i see is you
because i know that with you,
the wish i made will finally came true.
I wished on that one bright star in the sky
that someone would love me and be that special guy. ...
Well you will be my miracle man....

I will be right besides you
more than just a partner or a lover
i will be your friend....
through it all, wil have each other.....

I apologise for my mistakes, attitudes, and anger levels because trust me,
there's no guarantee that they will not be there...

BUT till the end,
I'll be with you ..........
that's what i wana do..
move with time.

so when you get angry, I'll try and contain the anger and probably the messy attitude that will come wth the anger....
Honey I'll smile all the way,
perhaps everyday..

when you're sad i will be the smile that you will need to laugh again...
i will believe in you
see the best in you...
i just hope you will do the same...

As my husband,
you will have my hand
up in everything you wana do.....
climb mountains, cry fountains and most of all pray together.
U will have my hand forever..

And sometimes
I know that we will lay back to back in silence
but i will never slip away to coldness.
In the darkness, I'll keep my silence
just to listen to your heart beat
So i will keep feeling close.

Through your storms, stones and thorns,
I will be strong
to be the one you can lean on..

I will fight not fight my strength to untape my mouth
cause with you i know I'll be free to speak my mind..
and I'll learn to just let it out..

I JUST WANT YOU TO BE SURE THAT I AM YOURS......

i gotta heal

something i need to confess on
there was no connection..
these emotions deep down my extra beated heart have no affection.....

the pain i feel is so disturbing.....
i should have listened,
to my inner voice that is locked up
am just hoping that this emotion wont cut my heart open...

am human, a woman usually mistaken
i have to mention that at times things that i despise jus get to happen...

when i can't control it,
i wana blame it on dad
mayne he should have never died.....
am so broken..

when i try to pick up these personal pieces,
life just pulls me down towards streams of cold rated blood,
so how can i pass

i need to be held
i need to be told
that all is ok,
my scars are too open...

why did this happen??
my heart is haunted,
my mind distorted...
why am i still living?

this baggage is quite a package...
the litle light has flashed to darkness....
i cant contain it but i must accept it....

my heart is hurting,
i feel a lot of pain....
something like a disappointment,
wish i could just flip off some pages but its hard to ignore the message that my heart is sending.....

things gotta change.
this pain is real i gotta heal..

Accepted

Here's what i think
You have a heart of Gold
you know you have been called
but you're stuck up being cold
so you put God on hold....

They say
once you sell ur soul,there's no turning back,
everything you once dreamt of has no impact....
all black...
well thats just a lie they use to tie you down.....

seen as a star
but really you're just full of scars...
Riding in fancy cars, dead smiles, fine clothes , fast life but all that will expire....

so LISTEN...
Am not much of a saint
but trust me u gata repent
cause see, every finishing line is a beginning of a new race.......
you say you dont know what is wrong and right
but you've heard that Christ is light
you chose to be blind
and yet you are tired of being your own plight.....

and ThIS is true though.
not all scars show and not all wounds heal.
sometimes you never truly see the pain that others feel...

I don't know you
its pointless to judge you
but here's the truth....
its not too late to live right,
just turn back and put on that light.

You are ACCEPTED
you are God's child
so be proud.....

Give it to God and go to sleep

Broken and bruised
you tired of being used??
obviously you didn't choose
to lose yourself till nothing
can ever get you amused...
More like an emotional abuse.....

you met based on a lie
moved on a tide,
everything was too fast,
you were too kind
but now you were left behind.
ITS TRUE AFTER ALL
some relationships are meant to die.

Held you up so tight , u lost fright
and just in due time, you called the shots and gave it a try...
But no u never ended like Bonnie and Clyde

made your heart skip
with promises he'd never really keep
but u still stayed up all night without sleep
just so he could be pleased.

you thought it was love
even if it was never enough...
looking at you now, he cant even call you up..

I am not trying to be mean,
i just want you to know that
even if you thought He was the one,
you were apart from his heart.

He could be in your scary dreams
always floating in blood streams and
playing with your sacred strings.
Regrets can be,
 the future is green.

So now you must know...
some relationships aint just meant to be.
 If he cant take the bullet,
just let him be.

You must wait....
Time will Heal u but Trust me, GOD'S GOT IT.
GIVE IT TO HIM AND GO TO SLEEP.

Imperfection

The pain of looking in a mirror and seeing
 a reflect that ought to be imperfect,
Lord it looks disturbing...
I cant even tell if the girl i see is me...

The shadows cloak my heart
They creep in from my past
The guilt, the pain, the shame and all those mistakes that turn out to be regrets...
But really that is just part of the start...

I contain only little charm
I give best the gift of harm
Maybe thats what it really is to be human.
This imperfection i cant equal
I could be rated evil,
But the blame cant be placed on my ego
Its because sometimes i just cant compare whats good from evil
I long to heal though
So u must know its perfection that i seek

I have been trying to fit in for ages
Flipping off the pages, am so tired of faking
I may flip, am a freak and i could be really creepy
But this girl is really me.....

You can either love me, or leave me,
I wont lose it because this is who i really am,
a perfection of imperfection.....

The perfection that i sought
Made me learn quite alot,
 i will never stay the same, yes i may not even win this game..
of being soo perfect
But truth be told,
Av learnt that imperfection is where perfection lies....😊😊😊😊💪☺✌

mixed feelings

The fire that others fear
is the heat i long to bear...
I usually have despair
but anyway who cares??
This life cant be so fair

Everything is going wrong
and its kinda taking long.
I feel like an old worn out shoe
i am not very new. .
Its like am in the wrong place
and everything is happening in some
kind of race...

Keeping up with things today,
is harder than my words can say
for everytime i think am strong
there i fall on many thorns...
and all i can tell me is that am
Human so i pick up my personal
pieces and rise again..

Life is like a maze
so i just sit here and gaze
i sit all by myself for no one can
understand better than i ..
Am amazed.....

Anyway, my wrist is the prisoner
holding in my life's blood.
I ponder the emptiness of my
own existence...
its like nobody loves me....

I must belong somewhere
i need to show who i really  am
but mayne......
there's too many words i can't spell
my slick slippery heel is a banana peel
Maybe someday i will heal
from these feelings down here

No one will understand,
definitely not in this land....