Of inscrutable beginnings TODAY

Today,
My love went to the grave,
The sun didn't shine after the rains...
Today there was an unsettled rush through my veins,
Disarray inside my head so my heaven went Hades....

Today, once again am in this place...
Where my emotions drove back to yesterday....
My feelings were chambered into emotions that died a painful death but to rise in glory!
Today I rose with my Halo....

Today marked the end of my dreaming, thinking and wishing that I could have been the sun that woke you up on the morning or hold your hand when you're almost falling....
Today my thoughts went out on the ebb...
From a lover's imagination ...
Today, I began my journey of realization.

Today I bought a smile with the pain
That came along with thinking that you were heartfelt....
But regardless of what your painted picture dented,
Today was the first day of my Triumph!!
My emotions re born
A life began.

*Of inscrutable beginnings*

Of fathomless retrogression

My walls have fallen,
But before then,
they used to talk, just about how much we, my mind and soul thought you were real...
The eerie face that seemed so real  and at the same time full of painful truth fell along with it,
Those were my emotions going down.
Every feeling turned turtle....

Breathing in the dark has been like poison to my soul,
As the antidote remains unknown, it's killing me slowly...
Now am trying to live with this space, no inbetweens, am slowly fading....

My wounds bleed
As my soul cries....
Colliding sweat and tears,
my eyes weep..
My sanity is in peril.
If my heart forgot to beat, you would be the last thing I had felt....
Because I want you to be....

Now let me waste away without those walls, for the rains to wash away these tainted emotions and grow me my flowers in Felicity.......

Thoughts of you

Been burnt before...
Never to miss how it feels to be wasted in smoke and ashes,...
Blown away from my senses, Lost stability,
But nonetheless

Here I am again
Slowly falling deeply in love
With the thoughts, hopelessly yearning and wanting nothing more than to feel that just.....
Maybe you'd feel the same way......
Am Deeply haunted by these
Thoughts of you....

The winds, the stars, shifting breezes, the rains, the beautiful blue skies or the dark nights, sounds of crickets under the moonlight, doorbell chimes, the rains dripping on rooftops, and the silence that comes with night now come with
Thoughts of you.

I do not know what it is about you that brings back these petals to life.
Nothing makes me happier than the friend I have found in you....
Not even the rains have so much power as
Thoughts of you.

My days slowly are becoming dreams...
Dreams of you my imaginary gorgeous nightmare..
Wishes upon wishes
I would succumb to your whims without contention...
Without regret.
There is nothing else I can happily think of, as my days are now crowded with rainy clouds of
Thoughts of you.