Do you Remember?

Once upon a midnight appall

While I ponder weak and weary upon abominable lores of love unequalled

Do you remember that night we had just returned from wander? The day your eyes set foot in mine......

I was wearing my favourite skirt 

You watched me as my eyes looked yonder to take a stab at ignoring chemistry

But you saw the blood boiling in my veins and you wanted nothing more than to get under my skin....

You said words that you should remember,

Words that lit up a burning ocean, 

Under my skin.

Do you remember that night you drove up the village and walked right into my sacred chambers?

After the hurricane you left me fain in my November garden where I mourn among my fallen petals, 

Before my roses felt the sweet constraint of December rain nor the happiness of January......

Stone heart, cold blood, am now a beautiful nosferatu, in it's truest form, laying still, 

Bleeding black after you burned my body and hurried my heart alive and wrote your true feelings of dead love in my eulogy...

I would be lying if I claimed you served no better purpose in my days of yore...

There's one good deed I fairly attribute to you.

Leaving me stranded and alive.

It was then that I learned that I could withstand everything that could come after you. 

Do you remember that someone once truly loved you?

How I love you

Secretly between the shadow and the soul,

I love you more than you may ever know..

It's almost like a pain but worth enduring.

I love you yesterday, today and enough to do so the rest of my life.

For how you make me feel, I let my heart unbend for I found January in my arms so praise the talisman and bless the charms.

I love you with not much reason but if I could paint a picture, I'd paint a rainbow as it reminds me so much of you. You brought so much color to my life with you. 

You are not the sun or the moon but the light you carry brought vision to my eyes. With you, I see life in so many beautiful ways. 

I love you like death loves life .....

I love you at your worst, in your darkest moments and with all of your flaws. If the stars would collide, I'd beg them to just for you.

I love you and I don't even know how 

But if ever you felt like you needed to leave,.

I promise I'd let you go and be as happy as you want to if it were not with me. 

Absurd but true, 

I love you enough to let you go.....

Is the love dying?

Ice, water, gas,... DISAPPEAR.

Life, birthed, lived, gone.....

DEATH.

Like love dying, but slowly.

Am watching us slowly depart as you do not remember me as you did anymore.

I was in your field of flowers, warm sunlight pouring on my temples and the cold rain running down my petals. You loved to see me bloom for your Caress. 

Nothing feels the same anymore..

Is the love dying?

Suddenly, the days have become empty,

A lot of humans, however, you not being a part of them..

Empty of your presence, calls, tags or texts

Should I keep on waiting

Or should I just stop?

Is the love dying?

Emotional cease-fires as my soul is starting to feel like a wound that won't stop bleeding. 

Zero persistence, we are almost none existent 

Is the love dying?

Of Thinkships (Have you ever)

Have you ever loved someone a million ways and didn't even know how?

Have you ever been sad, lonely, happy, nervous, uncertain, broken?

Have you ever run in the rain or kissed the one you loved in it? Have you ever stayed up all night star gazing, staring at the moon, or thinking about life and asking God why and the universe just how in the world it's mostly been you going through whatever it is that tears you apart?

Have you ever fallen in love with a person who is a reflection of how much you truly love yourself and assures you effortlessly how much you are more than enough without words? Or

Have you ever loved someone so much you were/are afraid to tell them because you imagined how empty life would be when they leave and you can't afford to be so vulnerable to heartbreak because you know that somehow, someday, they would leave you for someone else or the very reason they came to you? Their past (ex) and they left?

Have you ever wanted to make the world a better place for others but really didn't have the means to do so and it made you feel sad or cry because there is nothing you can do to help?

Have you ever wanted to talk to someone about so many things that break you inside so badly but you're afraid they'd judge you and you wish you could meet a total stranger that could feel you and listen?

Have you ever been so afraid of failure, of not being the person your family expects you to be because deep inside you all you want to be is just a simple person and do so many other things that truly make you happy instead, but you somehow you have to make them happy?

Have you ever wanted to jump off a cliff so bad or give up because nothing made sense anymore but you couldn't because the love in your heart for the people you care deeply about just can't let you go and leave them as broken as you are and you can't imagine them going through exactly what you did in that moment?

Have you ever lost a loved one to death, addictions or distance that it left you confused and utterly broken that they literally took away a part of you with them?

Have you ever just taken off on a bus or train or plane to another place just so you can forget or feel a little better, see something different, be in a other space and maybe talk to a total stranger so you can feel better?

Well you are not alone. There's so much hope, am with you, sometimes broken and confused. If you ever feel this way, there's no reason to go through it alone, no reason to be sad, let it burn you but find someone to talk to. I promise you will feel better. You will be alright.♥️

Of moving on

 Should the tides ever make rivers to flow backwards?

Should the sun ever disturb the night or darkness overshadow the light??

*Straight into bliss, I am reigniting my love tonight*

Life has taught me to listen to lies and leave them where they stand

High and dry... Behind

To break hearts and never give in...

Run but never hide my emotions and to listen to hearts that hurt and cannot confess .

Last couple of situations taught me to face what comes And be flexible and live in peace and happiness if possible.

Move on, it's okay to lean back, look out, left and right but move on with  just you in mind and that's alright.

For if you find true contentment you'll be truly happy and independent.😊😊

To the angel that stole my heart

Escaping dreams of yesterday is hard and since you closed your eyes to sleep in beauty, letting you go has been the hardest thing for me......

Sometimes I wish it were just a dream, I want to feel it's not real but pain really hurts and am reminded that it's real....

Somehow the memories we shared together keep me sane with magical potions and every inch of me is holding on....

I was the fuel and you were the spark

The love I can't design, my sunshine in the darkness burning out..  

Every time I reminisce I wish that you were still here and I had known that someday you'd sleep forever...

I'd have written you a thousand words to say how much I love you and a thousand more to say goodbye but I guess that is so much for wishful thinking and slowly it sinks in that life is not always a bed of roses but you were the soil in my garden.

If wishes were horses

 If wishes were horses

We'd all be happy and in love

No one would have to cry or fall apart

If wishes were horses

Sugarcoated "I love YOUs" would be very obvious

And we'd all be conscious

If wishes were horses

All of our loved ones would be alive and no one would have to die

So we could all be happy together

If wishes were horses

We'd all have what we wanted and never had to suffer from heartbreak

If wishes were horses

This begger would fly to the moon to catch a star for the one I love

I'd clone a dozen for you .

If wishes were horses

I'd always have you by my side

And we'd never have to miss each other so much...

If wishes were horses

The sun would be blue as the color of your eyes and you'd still be mine...

But wishes are not horses and they don't come true so never mind. 

Say a prayer and you will be fine

One last poem

Worlds

Drop

Dead..

This was once a love poem before it found itself sitting out here on a grave ... ..

From kiss to kiss

Everything that was lovely is but a grief, so brief and a delightful pain....

Iwill think about most of the times you spent with me,

Because all am left with to hold are memories but the most beautiful of them.

When you smiled

When you started to laugh

When you didn't like something and then you tried to hide it....

How your eyes would glow

The way that you're tall

The way you made me feel safe ..

Before my heart broke again and I have not died

So surely God has had his hand on me..

What arms my body longed for, and who and where and why,

I have to forget the lips my lips have kissed and who my body touched under the sheets till morning..

Explains why the moon is full of pain tonight, 

It's not the same under it's light..

What loves have come and gone from whom to who and where and why..

Still a thing I can't understand tonight....

Of unsang ballads..

This is a ballad

For the lost souls

The silent  

The people who truly love and are not loved back

A ballad for the broken

For the pure at heart and kindest souls

A ballad for the night.

Scars, pain and shame from past 

Is what consists most of our beauty.

So much that we have lost gone by to prepare us the most beautiful of futures unknown.     ....

We have looked into the eyes of death 

Walked hand in hand with fear and

Shook the hands of pain raining tears.....

Burnt our past to the love we lost

Dried the tears we shed dripping on the floor 

Searing pain, unending thoughts and hurtful reminders of nothingness.

This is a ballad for our moment,

Our only moment to correct and be better,

To accept and try again

To be confident and content,

To love the best way that we can and share with everyone who needs a care...

This is a ballad for you..

To try and make the world even better...

Nothing Lasts forever

 Time flies

Things change

Troubles end

Night falls

Sun shines

Love dies

Death arrives

Nothing lasts forever.....

I have fallen out of Grace

Floating into outer space

No longer trying to win your heart and attention...

No reason to stay

Nothing more to say but 

nothing lasts forever....

Tell me lies

Things I want to hear

Feed on my fear

Of not wanting to fall deep in love....

There's a clog in my heart, of fire and ice....

Never felt it there until I started losing you...

It was until then I realised that magic fades too fast and good times aren't permitted to last...

Nothing stays the same.

I guess it's time to refresh......

Nothing lasts forever.

The way that (You)

It's the way that you enjoy every sip off your mint tea,

The way that your hair falls into a ban and your eyes light up like stars above the sea ...

It's the way that you simply take life as it is and the way you smile all the time....

It is the way that your lips move when you try to speak and how open your mind is. Unafraid to make mistakes.....

It is the way that your hands fit right into mine and the warmth of your embrace...

The way that our lips touch when passion speaks to extremes.

It's the way that your hand falls gently on my shoulders and how your hands stroll softly through my hair..

But most of all, it's the way that we laugh and smile, how you tease me and still see me for who I really am... 

And your  presence that stops the world and bears fathomless obscure  logics of the heart....