For the broken girl in the corner

Its a shame you're apart..
You wish you could take it back to the start,
But we all know there is always a reason why some things fall apart...
It was a cold 'comfort..
Quit frowning at yourself.

See he clearly wasn't meant for you...
Yeah this is true.
You loved him n thought he did too,

Gave in to lust,
You let him go to all the places his hands were itching to touch..
Without thinking...
He finally played with your strings,
Now you not even things...

See all he wanted from you was to strip you off of your pride and take a bite
Then with immediate effect, take an early flight off your life...
No he never intended to be your mr right....
Zero intensions.

You took a bullet for him,
Missed a few shots from the guys who meant no harm.....
Your pretty boy was way too fine, had a nice ride, cash intact, made your head spin round, his words took your breath away.....sent you a Facebook relationship status, damn! That must have left you breath less.....

Well, see, reality is that he broke into your imaginations, nothing anyone else said made sense,
The chill pill was too bitter to swallow..
He abused your emotions,
Misused your body whenever he wanted then later,
He left you hanging there all alone,
You're broken..


See honey, not all that glitters is gold.....you probably heard of duplicity,
I trust you're intelligent.

Now you need to woman up! Forget about the tears n fears, what's done is done..
Your worth is not wrapped up in material things, and artificial beings,
You deserve better!
Your worth is rooted deep in Christ

To the guys around me

Am sorry
That am not perfect , (most times) I mess up too.

Am sorry
That am just a normal girl with so much self respect!
I love to stay home all night and not go out..

Am sorry
My body is not nice enough to satisfy your wants,
Especially of your eyes.

Am sorry
I do not sleep with any guy that comes my way,
I will stay this way...

Am sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to
But never (good enough) to date

Am sorry
You can't realize av been (the one all along...)

Am sorry
I was brought up the right way (I have priorities)
So I'd rather stay up all night to write poetry than go out to the club
That's not my kinda place to be...


Am sorry
That am not what you are looking for.
I actually care less..

Am sorry
That am actually nice and (not a bitch)

Am sorry
I have no expensive weaves, handsets, clothes, bags and shoes,
But am okay the way I am.
Taking one step at a time..


Am sorry
I am dark skinned and proud,
Won't try to be a yellow bone that y'all run to...
Am fine this way..

Am sorry
That I am not your type of girl,
But most of all,
Am sorry for not being sorry anymore.....

I am female and am actually OK with being alone and waiting for everything right to come my way!!
At the right time n right places.....

To all the guys

Am sorry
That am not perfect , (most times) I mess up too.

Am sorry
That am just a normal girl with so much self respect!
I love to stay home all night and not go out..

Am sorry
My body is not nice enough to satisfy your wants,
Especially of your eyes.

Am sorry
I do not sleep with any guy that comes my way,
I will stay this way...

Am sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to
But never (good enough) to date

Am sorry
You can't realize av been (the one all along...)

Am sorry
I was brought up the right way (I have priorities)
So I'd rather stay up all night to write poetry than go out to the club
That's not my kinda place to be...


Am sorry
That am not what you are looking for.
I actually care less..

Am sorry
That am actually nice and (not a bitch)

Am sorry
I have no expensive weaves, handsets, clothes, bags and shoes,
But am okay the way I am.
Taking one step at a time..


Am sorry
I am dark skinned and proud,
Won't try to be a yellow bone that y'all run to...
Am fine this way..

Am sorry
That I am not your type of girl,
But most of all,
Am sorry for not being sorry anymore.....

I am female and am actually OK with being alone and waiting for everything right to come my way!!
At the right time n right places.....

Choices

At the verge of night,
I lay down on my bed, with my head on the edge.....
My room all black
My night mares come back...
Its my past that won't retire...


I regret the moments I took for granted,
Moments I was eaten up by pride and hatred....
Am all alone, and its all in my head, you won't understand.

What happened to the life I had?
The one that was all cheesey and easy.....


I was impatient and naive.
I let people take advantage of me..
The desire to explore,
Pushed my life to the core, and now my heart is sore,
It can't feel anymore...

I thought I could find love and hold it....
Blindly, I went for it...
Gave in and tried to hold on to someone I thought felt the same...
My heart's tattoo had his name...
I only caused myself heartache and pain...

The choices I made
Got me mentally abused,
Physically misused...
But thanks to God, all the tears I cried finally fused.

Its the choices I made that landed me here today,
So whether or not I like it, I must strive to make it,
Pick up my personal pieces and give to this life a reason,
To go on through each and every season.......

Should have been you

I rushed and I crushed...
Broke a leg so I couldn't move.
My heart is still intact
He played with my body,
Toiled with my emotions
But never really broke my heart, he just thought he tore me apart....

Somehow I sit down n wonder why it wasn't you,
Why did I have to meet you when I was held by wrong hands?
It should have been you,
I swear our love would have been true...

It should have been you whom I missed the most,
it should have you my heart yarns for the most,
it should have been you that I saw today,it should have been you to make first impressions worth more than meeting new friends


It should have been you
This would have been a better song and we would both be singing along...

In love there is no discount
But for so much more, words count....
I guess I have had enough of seemingly bright and lovely people
Who burn through me and expect me to last.......

I have made so many wrong decisions in my life,
I can't write off these lines but I thank God it'd all in the past....

Wide as the mouth of a winding river,
It should have been you that picked me up and swept me away..... Shiny and white....

With broken pieces and a bunch of misplaced n uncollected words, all I am trying to say is...

It should have been you to finish this poem,
but putting a smile on your face means a little more to me right now,
It should have been you that I fell in love with...
Not him

Written by
#Lisa&Robert

Trapped

Am trapped on the inside,
With needles and razors
Each of a different size...
My emotions are ever in motion,
Like the sun, moving in slow motion..
ZERO COMMOTION


Am surrounded by people
Pushed to the middle
Yet am alone on the inside..
Rare as a pickle,
My heart is made of pixels.
If only you could love me,
I'd give you some of me and we could glow
Higher than eagles..

They say you can't fix what has been broken
But I try to bandage the damage with
ZERO BAND AIDS
I hold on  tight
With no fright...
There must be hope..

In the dark of nights,
I lay to feel alright
But my heart goes to war, wrestles my mind
And leaves me trapped on the inside...

So my eyes close
And I hold on to memories that beat me down so slow
If only I could change things...
I lose control, and cry out my soul..
OH NO.......

who u are

Who you are

Wondering who you really are??
Sitting around on that corner crying and asking God why??
Cutting razors through your flesh because you can't understand why things are happening the way they are??
Been thrown outside, kicked by your own guilt, shame and pain??
Disgusted by your own body.....
You have been placed in the corner, they rated you an outcast!! They told you , you are dirty, you're bad and ugly, You can never change........
Well they lied to you, so did your mind, your entire brain n heart because that is not who you really are.....

You are...
A beautiful and priceless work of art, created and shaped in the image of the most high God #Jehovah
An apple of God's eye
Beautiful and deserving..
Forgiven and loved,
worth dying for,
you're intelligent, the salt of the world,
among the chosen and called!!
A Jesus Revolution DNA carrier!!
Cared for and valued
A child of a King!!
A god because you take after the most high....
more than the choices that you've made,
more than some of your past mistakes
more than the problems that you have created,
YOU HAVE BEEN RE-MADE
You are God's own valued Child..

STOP striving and trying to earn grace, Let God lift u up, just dont turn away,
why are u looking for love
why are u still searching as if He is not enough????

Why are you stil crying??
Look at the cross and see what He did for you, took His own life so u could have one.....


Get up, and be proud!!!
Shake off that past and walk head high!! Listen to God n not man....

HIS HANDS ARE HOLDING YOU, DAY AND NIGHT, IN GOOD AND BAD TIMES....

I love you
#Lisa

Love : my definition

Love is where all dreams and hopes reside,
Its like a fountain of water, ever running..
Ever alive ,
Ever breathing like the waters in the Ocean...
It never runs out....

Not loud, never to be heard
Love is a quiet sensation
To love, there is no sequel,
its never easily mistaken with infatuation...

Love is a chance for two hearts to share and grow trust, understanding and compassion
It breaks fourth like a thief in the night,
pulls you away from yourself into another world and sweeps you right off your feet......
Any time is right for love,
it knows no age or status..

Its beauty is It's essential air for the soul to breath and its eternal endurance,
it's absence of hell even when I think Am in it...

LOVE is the light inside my eyes,
it gives me reason not to give up and try...

It is inner peace that cuts right through like razors....
It may confuse you a little,..
Kill you a little
Maximize or reduce your pulse rate to a tic toc, tic toc..
but IT'S STILL CALLED LOVE...

Love is immaculate and immanent,
closely working with that heart and keeps you feeling beautiful....

Love is an art, pure and expressive in its own unique way.....
May drive you crazy ,
drain ur eyes and sicken you but IT'S STILL CALLED LOVE.

As immeasurable as it is,
Love is a touch of kindness that leaves me feeling complete😊

For a friend

I'm not sure when and how it happened
But I'm very glad it did
You came into my life
When I really needed a friend

Your kindness and tender heart is what I fell for
Very new but yet its feels like I have known you forever......

The only thing I know about you is your last name
it's kinda insane
But the important thing I know is You are a good person, at least so it seems.

Calm as the waters in the sea,
Brave as the the stars at night, no one can steal your shine.😊😊😊🙈
I hope our friendship goes a mile......

We sit and we type, and we stare at our screens,
We all have to wonder, what this possibly means...

We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes flirt,
On WhatsApp we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt.
We have formed a bond
but why, we don't know,
I hope that our friendship will flourish and grow.

The more I get to know you
The more I know myself
And this is why I'm thankful
For you are just yourself

You and I are different
But in many ways the same
Your good ear and tender heart
Will always find you fame

My writing may not be so perfect but.....
I promise to always be here
Forever and to the end.
Well thats if you need me as your friend😀😀😀

Risen

Its been a while since I sat down to write
Its been a while but my mind is still racing tonight...
Am on that hedge against heartbreak and un ending mistakes...
There's a new edge to my heart's burning desire.

The storm is raging...
my heart fading.....
my walls asphyxiate my very being...
Am seeing only into myself, having some sought of self-examination...
INTROSPECTION

My diastole is overated
I need some self surgery,
everything looks fine on the outside
but the diaspora on the inside....
tired of being teased and tested....
Am my own shadowbox

I drift through life endlessly, treading and shape shifting..
none the less
I am the radical nucleus in the way....
I tend to stay away...


I am aware of my ignorance,
with my strengths and hopes i embrace the facts of my existence....
All restraints have been removed, no more holding back...
ZERO RESISTANCE...

So hold on a second if you missed out on that...
am not a togt arrangement,
the lies people tell , misconceptions and conformity,
Above them i have RISEN!!

Just a girl

My wounds are deeper than your desires...
what you want is nothing compared to what i have...
I am just a girl, that walked into that store every high class person buys from
to grab a bottle of chilled water to quench my thirst.

In this paradox of life
I used to know so well,
My existence is a couple of blurred lines..
can't read my own words
I'm lost in my maze of mortality.

I drown in blood soaked tears,
I'm falling from space
Like an angel with no destination

I am sorry that i can't afford expensive clothes, classy shoes, vibrant hair, dazzling earnings n bracelets, trendy bags and scalves.....
Unable to impress your class, ur mates and maybe
your family ..

My cloud has no silver lining-
It rains too much to shine,
There's no light at the end of the tunnel-
For the tunnel is no longer mine.
Am just a simple gal, swallowed up by my own fears..

Less of a people pleaser,
not wealthy,
I am just a girl, so simple...
with nothing to offer but a heart full of love , honesty,
 care and humor mixed with a portion of mistakes...

I'm searching with closed eyes now..
sometimes my wounds try to control my soul.
I wish the scars would heal off my skin ,
They leave me broken and beaten down to nothing...

Am just a girl, that has one thing she is proud to call her own, A FAMILY

A girl with so many scars
wounded but not bleeding....
cut with so many razors in the flesh
and still able to hold my body against life's walls ...
my wounds are deeper than your desires...

 just a girl that wants to love and be loved...
to share what God has given me with somebody else...
Am not going to change for any reason....
you either take this or leave me😊 ..........
I have nothing more to offer...