Until Love

 Until Love leaves it's holy temple, 

Then only do you understand how people go from a pin bright moment into seperate lives.....

When the old memories of pleasure begin to fade into the darkness of days as they go by.....

You remind yourself that the love wasn't true, as true love never walks away....

When the love you thought was the one leaves it's holy temple, know that it's done and over.

Let your heart choose a path and walk so far and let nothing turn you back from where you are.

You are deserving of love that chooses YOU over and over again. Love Yourself ❤️ 

Oh good grief

 Oh good grief...

So this has been and can never be again?

Here I am swallowing grief down my tongue

Dancing to the melodic torture of the good times and the love I so deeply feel 

Oh good grief 

I am highly punished 

As life without you is so much harder than I thought.

It's the little moments that I will miss the most I think.

Listening to your stories, talking to you before the end of the day, 

Falling asleep to the sound of your voice and in your arms....

Laughing about everything we found funny,

Waking up to your messages,

Road trips with you,

Every single moment I spent with you,

Holding your hand and hoping it would last forever,

Meeting people with you,

Sunsets with you,

Laying with you

And spending all of my days looking forward to speaking with you. 

Oh good grief!

Once, your words were comforting, 

Now they are serpents in my mind, deeply tormenting...

Each I love you that you ever said has fully left It's venom in my heart

For all I hang on to is a thread of nostalgia. 

Oh good grief

His absence has left an unfathomable void,

It's hard today, not that it has been easy the past few days but it's harder today.

I guess that is how I will end, 

Never recovering from my love.

Oh good grief,

I think I am finally free,

Free from the delusions that rot my soul,

Unshackled from the yoke of obligations I placed myself.

Oh good grief,

My lost love,

I hope you find the love that you are looking for.

I hope you find happiness and fulfillment in life.

I hope you do not find one that will leave your dreams like you left mine. 

I hope you find one that chooses you 

And loves you for who you are!

What Money Cannot Buy

Freedom to sing

Freedom to speak

Freedom to seek

Freedom to write

Freedom to Feel

Freedom to Love

Freedom to be who you want to be

Freedom to Live

Freedom to die 

Freedom to laugh

Freedom to cry

Freedom to dance

Freedom to run

Freedom to have

Freedom to care

Freedom to give

Freedom to dream

Freedom to work

Freedom to try

Freedom to be 

Freedom to see

Freedom to want

Freedom to aim so high

Freedom to choose

Freedom to believe

Freedom to walk

Freedom to roam

That is mostly everything Money Can't Buy

That Girl

 They say blunt force breaks glass, but so does resonance

I am that girl standing underneath the golden tree for my turn to pick up the falling golden leaves in spring time, beneath a tree so beautiful than I could begin to wonder.

I am that girl,

that girl improving my music, my poetry, 

that girl dancing on the shore. No matter what comes my way, I stand here and sing and dance to the music of the sea so beautifully as the waves on it.

I am that girl freely floating ,

Floating in the salt lake that life has specially built around me. I am that girl most traveled to escape and deal with emotions that hang on the balance of my not so sad life. I am that girl now living life, a life I thought was impossible to live. 

A life of Love and freedom and grace.

I am that girl traveling towards everything beautiful because it was meant for me. The girl giving all the love as it should be. A girl happily and madly in love with being me.

The Death Of Me

 What I want,

What I truly desire,

Braiding your tangled hair

Touching your beautiful manly large feet 

I want to taste your flaws, your lips wet with mine

Your arms when your warm white flesh touches mine, your magic embrace

Your kisses against my face

To lay down with you every night and morning

You still live in me and my soul cries for the death of me.

When I looked into your eyes, they were like clocks that stopped when I stared into them

In these moments, everything began to speak

Only in languages love is understood.

The death of me made music with me, music my soul has been dancing to ever since.

He put paintings of life in my imaginations and made me smile like nobody else can

His eyes brought back emotions I couldn't control.

It is the death of me that showed me that love and passion rule over preparation

And made me more independent.

The death of me was a he and he understood me

The death of me loved me so deeply as I him.

And still,

Whatever happened with us, your body haunts mine, tender and slow and the incense I am burning over you brings back every memory of you.

Tu es ma mort

Mathieu. 

On Someday Isle

Someday you will leave that unhappy house and never look back 

And I believe that someday,

you will be happy again, you will be free and you will be okay with being you.

I hope that someday your eyes meet the love of your life and never have to part again. 

I hope that you can be with someone else that will love you more than you ever dreamed of. 

Someday, you will find someone whose words form a bandage which mends your wounds.

 

Someday, all your dreams will come true and everything you ever wanted will happen. Someday, you will inspire others through your stories.

Someday you will realize that you are indeed an amazing person and they will miss you like you missed them, 

someday you will understand why things happened the way that they did and someday, 

you will learn how to love yourself again.

I hope that that day starts today.

Of Letters. To The Girl

To the girl fighting for life and still loving so hard when all around you broke you,

Darling, you are beautiful, and this world deserves your heart.

To the girl fighting battles silently and still giving out their best ....

You delight the hearts that you touch and your smile is more beautiful than the stars. Keep on smiling.

To the girl that has nothing but love and positive energy and compassion to give even when her world is falling apart,

The universe is deeply and madly in love with you.

Your kindness and strength make everything appear so visible, and darling your loveliness knows no bounds and the earth, 

It opens up with flowers to show for it. Flowers of love, strength, faith, passion, and energy unmatched.

To the girl reading this and looking for reasons to hold on, you are so beautiful this piece finds home in your heart. 

Hold on a little longer and one day. The universe will weave its rewards.

Journeying Life

Sometimes,

To pick up the flowers, you got to fight the bumble bee, and so is life.

As you speed out of youth's sunny station and fall down in your hurry, pick your feet up honey and go traveling along.

Enjoy the funniest moments, the best food, and create unforgettable memories and want the best things for yourself. For all that you gather and all that you keep, you must leave when you fall asleep.

So Trump along over the highway of life, knowing not what's ahead but still doing your best and loving the rest!

Live on

What will you do with your one, umtamed and dear life? Die for love or live the reason you were born?

In a minute you could make a new friend or lose one,

Find your true love or lose the wrong one

Or see a life start or end.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly and listen to others

For as the best books are yet to be written and the best songs yet to be sung, the best is yet to come.

Cheer up, the world is young, and remember that you become who you are in the moments you live life on the line.

Life.

O Goddess of Freedom

 It is as if everything else has slept...

Many of memories forgotten and lost,

The mates that were,

The things done long and not long before

This freedom restored.

The moon and I,

There's none less free than who.

Stars are just stars and the moon, a moon.

For deeds cannot dream what dreams can do...  

Fierce was the flame while it lasted,

Heart of my heart,

Pain of my pain,

Have I offered thee .. 

Goddess of freedom

Aphrodite, restore...

Goddess of freedom and life-loving,

As the daisies run on the dunes to sea

Shall over the world my soul go free.

And over the world to sing and roam,

To dance and eat,

Make glad my feet,

To be carefree and run as the winds do, soft and fleet.

With this freedom, restore

Life to the limbs of me... 

Cast me to the core.

Goddess of freedom,

Now I know how good it is to be forgotten and forget.

To forget the friendships, the hardships and all the people you wish you never met...

In these moments, 

To think of life is sweet.

The shackles fall and drop about one's feet.

Now it seems the world and life are all complete...

As I stand at the grave of everything lost, dreaming of what I will do.

Now that I am free,

Goddess of freedom,

Cast me to the core.

Fallen Flame

I will not carry your heart from the flicker

For my heart's demise is what you cost..

I will not lose my mind or my eyes

Four hundred and fifteen times

Or drawn in depression 

Or sit in the comfort of sharing the woes of our two paged love story

I will go bankrupt of sorrow or thoughts of you

And be happy, 

That I know.

I will be doing this alone

As I have no twin soul or twin flame 

For impatient hearts, indecisive minds

And narcissistic men.

I will follow to the flames

And drag you back with fumes in it.

I will forget our meadow,

Where we used to roam 

Where we used to laugh and smile and dance and lay under the candle light and forget all the troubles of life

But one thing I will never forget?

A thing you will never ever know......

Dear friend

Dear friend,

I don't think you will ever fully understand 

Just how you have touched my heart

How truly special you are

And all the love I have to give....

Like a tree planted in desert land 

You stayed through bad days and stormy nights

And grew with me through whatever seasons came...

Dear friend,

To me, you'll never be old

Through winters cold and summers hot,

You will always be a love I want to hold...

Dear friend

You are my needs answered

A field in whom I saw with love and imperfections and reap with Thanksgiving 

My board and fireside

In you, my trust resides..

Through the bashful nights of November and the forceful light of summer

You never left my side.

I love you

Not only for what you are 

But for what I am when I am with you.

For what you are making of me,

I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done.

Dear friend

As I write

I think awhile of you

And as I think,

Your love to me is a world

Only meat and sweetest drinks 

And a close connecting link between earth and kingdom come.

Dear friend

I just want to say I love you in ways that I cannot express and I am grateful to have you a friend.

Dear love

Dear love

I seek to return to thy alcove

As softly as browned-eyed angels rive.

To give thee my kisses and heart as cold as the moon and deathly as the crimson tide...

Dear love

you have left me in unknown ways without companion

And my mind to woe as my life lies in fortune's hand....

The night,

It is a great thing

A great thing to me,.with candles lit, I reminisce the nights of bliss we lay with bodies craving the other and our hearts in love revelry as we kissed...

Dear love,

None of them have brought forth that joy

The night or day

As they come pale as season grieves...

Dear love, 

How did I love thee?

To the depth, breadth and height my soul could reach...

To the level of everyday's quiet need,

By sun and candle lit,

With my childhood's faith

Dear love,

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose.....

Lost to life's uncertainties and words that end

Cheer up

Through big clouds and storms

Life shouldn't frighten you at all

Be grateful for whoever comes

For each has been sent as a guide from beyond 

Shadows in the wall or voices in the head

Frequent memories that bring forth melancholy or frequent flashbacks in your head

Worries or bumps in the road

Oh cheer up!

We are all dressed for life's short comedy 

Be grateful for lessons learned and all things felt, 

Cheerup, for the world is still young and yours for the taking

This chance. Be of use

In Nostalgia Goggles

 I was a lonely pearl 

Hardened by pain and heartbreak 

Contented with the love I cared to not share and the doors I kept closed.

Not mindful I was loving

Why did a fair omi find me?

And show me that love was after all worth to wear?

Why did he find me 

And filled my heart with flair?

He lured me to his beautiful heart

And woed me joy and glows of happiness instead.

Wore me like knots of silk

And loved me as if God chose him by hand to bring bliss and light.

And now, I am as an artic of midsummer, 

Feeding on the way he burns from me

As I wish upon stars that this melancholy would last only a night so I can surrender to his power naked as a jaybird as slowly

My flair swartens.....

From Pain Galores

 Here I lay in wonder,

Had I but world enough and time,

I would sit down and think which way to go through love's long days.....

Had I but confusion and uncertainty in beginnings, 

I would have loved at a lower rate 

But right now, time's chariot is winging near,

Nearer than I could ever have imagined

And beauty seems to not be found and the long preserved hope has been lost....

Seemingly not to be found and the love that was painted at skies of deep blue could not last a couple of stormy nights...

Now as arbitrary darkness gallops in,

I shut my eyes again and all the world drops dead.

Here I lay.

Back in the realization that one never will have to negotiate their way into a heart that wants them there

And safety sounds like the home i live in. Complete solitude.

To a Phenomenal Woman

 Dearly phenomenal woman

May your love to you be as the mother bird to the waiting nest,

As the regnant moon to the sea,

As joy to the heart that hath first been blest—

For men themselves have wondered  

What they see in you

They try so much

But they can never touch

Your inner mystery.

When you try to show them,  

They still can’t see as it lies 

in the arch of your back,  

The sun of your smile,

The ride of your breasts,

The grace of your style.

You are a woman

Phenomenally.

So love yourself as the sun it's shine!

It doesn't interest me what planets are squiring your moon,

I say, sit here, breathe, and live

You will love again the stranger I say was yourself.

Give wine. Give bread, light up those candles. 

Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Get up. 

walk into a room

Just as cool as you please,

Embrace with grace the swing in your waist,  

And the joy in your feet.  

For you are a woman

Phenomenally.

Phenomenal woman,

Your heart broke again, but take it back now and place it back gracefully into the place of truly love.

 Feast on your life.

Letters and a confused heart.

Tingling.

Heart clenching.

Is something fading?

I wish he could know what I am too scared to show

I wish he could see just how much he means to me..

I wish he could hear all the things that I fear, about him never believing that my love for him is growing.....

I took a step into the unknown,  never wanting to look back

Loving him with all the ways I have ever known and day by day, I hold him close to my heart though shattered apart. Wondering why he would easily turn me away.

Sometimes, his words cut deep into my soul but then my love reminds me that I gave unto him my heart and relinquished my soul...

I want to love him in ways I do not know...

With passion wide and love so vast am wishing upon stars and night that pain and sadness remaineth things of thy past.

Dear love

 It was the moment that I stared into your eyes that the universe halted. 

It was in that moment that everything dead in me began to breath. Even though I was not yours and still not, as I was, I am still lost in you as a candle lit at noon.

So whatever happens with us, your body will haunt mine tender, your touch on my body will remain firm, protective and searching...

Whatever happens,  this is.

Of Life and Time

 Tick tock, tick tock

People I thought I once knew

walk by without a clue.

The times we once shared

exist as if I were never there, time is flying, some friends have died, some I have just lost to life and situations

and I never know when we'll say our last goodbye.

Oh, how I wish I could turn back time,

spend it with loved ones and cherish what is still mine. Life and the few people that still think I matter.

Whatever got you, whatever broke us, I just hope that if you are alive and reading this. All gets well for you.

Love from this distance,

Lisa.